Innermost

This is from a little while ago. I figured that I needed some thing to post until I can think of something fresh to write...

A scene from the Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers

When Frodo wants to give up and lose hope..



Frodo: I can't do this Sam..

Sam: I know.It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end, because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was after so much bad had happenened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you, that meant something, even if you were too young to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances to turn back, only they didn't. They kept going because they were holding onto something.

Frodo: What are we holding onto Sam?

Sam: [He helps Frodo up and says:] That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it's worth fighting for..




We need to know - I need to know - that there's so much more than ourselves to live for. So much more than ourselves to die for. There is more hope than we think there is - for us and for this life we live. There are more good things in the past, present, and future to look at and forward to than there are bad things to worry about. There is more to enjoy than to dread, more to hope for than to despair over, more to love than to , more to smile about than to cry over, and more to give up than to give in. We gain so much more than a "good life" when we give everything away. The King we fight with and for is so much greater than any of us and any enemy that could come against us. This King will lead us greatness more than we can create for ourselves in victory and in rest.

With tears and great heartache do I long for a full and beautiful life, full of good things. My deepest yearning is just to be with this Lover and Friend and King, to know and to be known by Him. My spirit is torn in a thousand pieces just for Him to come and take me home. My heart and song will always be to see white shores...and beyond.

I say all of this because I relate to Frodo in many ways. I can feel in my being that my strength is being drained. All I feel is this weakness that allows this old man to show himself in the ugliest of ways. He is selfish and desires nothing more than his own. I need Jesus with every fiber of every bone. I also need friends to stand by me through this time of immaturity and say that they'll help me get there, and that one day they'll stand with me on those white shores, and together walk in Him.

Thank you to all who are ruined right along with me and will stay with me. I will stay with you as long and as best I can. I love you.

Thank you Lord for such an amazing story that I have a part in. I'm humbled to no end. Don't let pride swell or my feet to fall. Please be with me and help me to walk the straight and narrow path during all my days, and help me gather many to that path before it ends at those marvelous gates..